A house makes me sad. 610 E 12th Street. Any house makes me sad, really, since it's because of this particular house that I won't have my own house for a long time. I loved owning my own house, loved it a little too much. I could paint it, break it, fix it, however I wanted. It was always there for me, standing sturdy. This is a convoluted tragic love story.
Events happened, etc. etc. etc., and now we're facing a short sale on the house. Jobs are 100 miles away from it (literally), so we can't live there. Our excellent credit score will be decimated by the short sale, so we won't be able to buy a house, maybe not even rent a different one, for x years. We're currently renting a small duplex full of brown carpet (oh horror), with in-wall heaters and precious little space for gardening.
Now I want to kick myself.
The majority of the Earth's population would view this duplex as a rather lavish dwelling. Even in this town, there are far worse places to live. Now please everyone remind me how it was only 7 months ago that I lived in my parents' BASEMENT, with cement floors, little privacy, a host of mice, and a washing machine that sometimes flooded the place.
What do I have to complain about?
Other than the fact that I. Must. PLANT THINGS!!!
I miss my house. I miss the well-draining soil and long growing season there. I miss the hardwood floor that survived anything we threw at it. I need to find a way to get over this.
Sad! That is the worst news ever. I'm so sorry about your house.
ReplyDeleteI used to compare house shopping to dating because of all the emotions involved. I never thought about losing a house. That really must be devastating. You have your hopes & dreams & future plans all wrapped around this house, all the things you love about it & now you don't have that anymore. That's awful!
You were very fortunate to have that house, but that doesn't mean you don't feel pain over it's loss or that you should suck it up & get over it immediately because other people don't have homes at all. Go ahead and cry about it if you want to because crying or not isn't going to magically give the whole world duplexes with brown carpet.